His Will

If there's a road I should walk

Help me find it

If I need to be still

Give me peace for the moment

Whatever your will

Whatever your will

Can you help me find out?

Can you help me find it? 

These lyrics are the cry of my heart. 

Many of you heard the news a couple days ago, that I was not accepted to Moody. My application was deferred for now. I'm not sure why. It's not my place to question it, but rather it is a call for me to trust the Lord. He is the one that orchestrated me not getting accepted this time a round.

This was obviously was a huge disappointment to my heart, as some of you know. It honestly felt like I was hit with a train. My heart was literally SET on this college and the specific major. I really thought that I was going to get in. I mean, there is still hope that I will be accepted in April. But for now, I am in the process of searching out colleges that I can't even look at affording. 

To be honest, my heart is anxious. What if I don't get accepted?!? Where will I go and what major will I pursue? I have ideas, but I don't even know if I will be good at what I want to do. And it's so easy for me to freak out about this...but I have no reason to. You know why? Because He is SOVEREIGN. He knows the plans He has for my life, and I should find so much comfort in that. I am praying for His guidance. His leading. 

 This whole time I was waiting to hear from Moody, I kept on saying to myself and to others..."I have no plan B." But... maybe God does. Maybe I won't get accepted to Moody...and if I don't, I just have to be okay with that.  I have to keep praising Him, and to trust that His plans are the best for this life. This life that He gave to me to live completely for Him. I'm choosing joy. I'm choosing to praise Him. I'm really learning to praise God in the good and praise God in the not so good. 

Lord, it WILL be my joy to say... Your will, Your way. 

Always.