Spokane, WA

I struggle with anxiety.
Shocker.

Many things that seem simple to the normal human, are a struggle for me.
And this transition is hard for me.
Moving so far away from home is not comfortable to me.
If it was my choice, I wouldn't be going.
Pardon my french, but hell no.
But you know what? It's not my choice.
It's His choice. He has chosen this path for me.
And I have to be obedient to His leading.

You know, I promised God a couple years ago that if He is pushing me to do something, then I will say YES. No matter how scared I am. No matter how uncomfortable it is for me. No matter how much anxiety it brings me. No matter what circumstances I am dealing with during my life at that moment. No matter what others say. I told Him that I would say YES. And so, I have to obey.

I've decided to say yes, because I know that His way is better. I know that when you say yes to Him, you reap blessing. You learn a lot about Him and your relationship with God just grows tremendously. Trust me. I've been in a lot of situations where I chose fear over faith, all because of anxiety. But for this transition, I am choosing faith. And I know God will give me the strength to live out His plan for me.

So yes, I am beyond terrified for this next transition in my life.
But you know what?
I have hope in a God who can do far more than I can think or I can even imagine. And I am praying He does just that. In fact, I know He will do just that. Who knows, I might just be here for a year. We will just have to wait and see what He does.

Ephesians 3:20-22 says, "Now to Him who is able to do FAR MORE abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen." 

Am I going to turn to Him and TRUST Him? Or am I going to live in FEAR of what the future holds? I truly haven't felt this stretched or even attacked by the devil in a long time. Bad thoughts galore. I know that it won't last forever though. My God is bigger than the enemy who comes to steal, kill, and destroy.

Washington, here I come.