Dear you,I love you. You may not know who I am yet, and I may not know you yet... but I love you. And I pray for you and think about you often. All of this sounds cheesy, but it's true.
Growing up, I always had dreams that I would get married. It all started when I was a little girl.
I always envisioned myself getting married. I saw myself walking down the aisle, and looking at my soon to be husband. Almost every little girl dreams of her perfect wedding day.
And I want that. I want to be married someday. I have a strong desire to be married to someone who wants to proclaim the name of Christ with me, and travel the world proclaiming the Gospel. And I hope you my dear, want that as well. I have a desire to have a family. I have a desire to raise up a family in Godliness, while submitting to your leadership. I want to love you and serve you to the best of my ability. I want to be that Proverbs 31 woman who encourages you to be more like our Father in Heaven.
I think it's interesting though, how our views of marriage can change over the years. I always wanted to be married someday, but I never viewed it in a positive way or viewed it s something that would ever happen in my life. Because of being molested and abused, I became very scared. Because of my parent's relationship and divorce, I looked at it as something that wouldn't last. Because of countless other circumstances, I viewed marriage as something that was broken. Something that would never happen in my life.
Recently though, God has given me a new perspective on marriage and a hope for marriage. I've started to realize that marriage is an absolutely beautiful gift from the Lord. Genesis 2:18 says, "It is not good for man to be alone. I will create a helper suitable for him". If marriage is in God's plan for my life, then I want it. I want to submit to the Lord's guidance every step of the way and submit to Him.
Over and over again, God keeps reminding me that He can redeem my past. He can make me new. He can make what was once broken, whole. He can restore and redeem. He is a God that can heal my deepest wounds.
So my dear, please be patient with me. I'm nervous. I'm scared. And I am incredibly excited and giddy for the day where we join as one. I can't wait to meet you and grow in the Lord together. May we both prepare ourselves now for a long life together serving the Lord.
Let what God has joined together, let man not separate.
Carly
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